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Travel

I've been travelling my entire life. I've visited every continent except Antarctica. I would love to visit one day but I'm also aware of the ecological impact of too many tourists to fragile ecosystems like Antarctica.

My favourite places to live/travel are definitely all in Europe. I love France and I LOVE London, but I also love The Netherlands. I'm learning Swedish because I would love to go and just be able to chat in Swedish with people.

I think my love of travel and my love of language is intertwined. I see much more of a country when I've learned the language. It's one of the reasons I've learned so many and want to learn more.

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Superpower

There are two superpowers that I wish I had: invisibility and time travel. Sometimes I wish I were magical like in Harry Potter as well, but I've always wanted to be invisible or travel through time. Mostly I want to travel forward to a point in time of my choosing. Mostly because I am very rarely happen in the when and where I am now. Invisibility because I want to go places where women are either not allowed or unwelcome and just see what it's not like not to be noticed for my perceived sex.

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Reason

I think I'm a reasonable person, for all meanings of the word 'reasonable'. The only thing I'm pretty unreasonable about is my very, very liberal/progressive political stance. I'm unreasonable about things like universal health-care and pro-choice rights and LGBT equality. If that makes me an awful person, then I am an awful person.

I am so very tired of living in the South, in America. It's...pretty wearing everyday to hear about the evil liberals who want to...I don't know...give people rights? I'm a little in the dark on how we're bad people for wanting more rights for people.

If I sound a little...pedantic about this, it's because most of the things I want are pretty standard issue in most 'developed' countries. Perhaps it's because the USA doesn't like to take advice. We are an 'exceptional' nation...

(And no, I don't like Hilary Clinton, but I suppose I don't have any choice. I don't think any of the ten Republican possible candidates are pro universal healthcare.)

Questions (Frequently Asked)

Here are the top five questions I am constantly asked by students or new people or just, in general.

Where are you from?
- I was born in Texas. I've lived all over the world.

What ARE you?
- My mum is German and my father is Black American. Hence me.

How many tattoos do you have?
- I've got nine. I want more.

How many languages do you speak?
- Seven, four fluently. I want to speak 12 fluently.

Are you married/do you have kids?
These come back to back, so I'm counting them as one. No and no.

There are plenty more, but those are the ones that I get the most.

Progress (?)

I don't make new years' resolutions, and I tried to do the 101 in 1001, but I already know that I won't make any of that. I'm so terrible at sticking to goals. I'm just as fat as I've ever been, I oscillate between biting/not-biting nails, and I'm just...a lazy, stupid, fat, awful person. Sorry. I know you're supposed to be all positive about your life, no matter what, but I can't do that and be honest about it.

Offers and Opportunities

I'm very overwhelmed by work, and what happens after (when I lose my contract) and then again...I have an interview coming up. I keep breathing, but I'm just not sure. I just am so lost.

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Names

My initials are SDS. My first name is Sabrina. It sounds very close to my father's name and I appreciate that. My father and I don't get along very much but I enjoy having a familial connexion.

I have two nicknames: Brina and Dezi. The only person that can use Brina is my mother. I was given Dezi by a one night stand after he found out my middle name. I'm not kidding. I'm not really good at nicknames but I sometimes introduce myself at Dezi or write it as my name.

One of my students has taken to add a 'Y' to my last name and calling me that. It makes me laugh because it's my father's old nickname from the military.

So what's in a name? However you react to it, I suppose.

Music and Melancholy

I hate listening to music out of its place. I can only listen to certain bands in certain countries or I get terrible depressed and fall into a terrible state. Some music can only be listened to whilst walking along streets in a thousand year old city and some can only be listened to on planes or trains. I only listen to NPR in the car in the USA; in England it's Radio 4 in the car (although I've gotten used to listening to Radio 4 at home, but only through podcasts, sometimes live).

Every song puts me straight back to where I heard it last, and sometimes that can cause me to burst into tears. I haven't done that in a while, but you know, things change.

I listen to all sorts of music. If I do have music on, it's usually thematic. I love the Songza playlists for certain times of the day, but I don't listen to it very often. During dinner or in the mornings getting ready at the weekends (if I don't have a podcast to listen to).

I realise I am a strange, strange soul.

Loneliness

I live by myself. I don't spend a lot of time going out nor do I have many hobbies that require me to be around people. I spend the majority of my day around loads of people, mostly teenagers, and I admit I've turned into a bit of a hermit.

I can't say I'm especially lonely as I go about my life. I enjoy silence when I'm at home. I don't listen to music, but at the weekends I listen to a lot of podcasts and try and watch a movie or something.

I realise this makes me sound like a boring homebody but I assure you I am interesting in my head. I can't imagine having to share my space with anyone anymore.

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Kindness

I think I am a kind person. I help when I am able to, and I give things from my own possessions if I can. Little acts of kindness go a long way. Last year I paid for someone's Girl Scout cookies. The only reason I remember this is because she started crying. Which kind of freaked me out.

Today at the post office I gave the person in front of me two stamps. I don't use a lot of stamps in my daily life, but I always carry around a book of stamps just in case! Today was a perfect time to use them, I suppose.

Do you do any random acts of kindness? How do you feel after?